Me, Tes was born as a twin kid with a loving twin brother to my loving and blessed parents. Life has been smooth throughout as I have been with my twin brother till I completed my matriculation. He was more of an extrovert, well networked among friends and I used to latch onto him for all my overall activities. I was more hardworking in nature when it comes to studies & he was always at ease but used to score at par. I was always happy about it & comfortable being with him, sharing with him & getting inspired by him.
My parents used to leave it our way& never tried to push me or compare between ourselves. My mental trauma erupted when my brother left us & stayed apart for pursuing +2 studies coupled with entrance coaching. I stayed at home since I wanted to be with my parents but his vacuum had put me in a different mental frame. But I managed 2 years only getting consoled that during once in 2 weeks he used to be around for a day or two. He got adapted easily but I was going through a missing pain which I never voiced out. We both passed +2 & he managed to get higher marks & a seat for engineering through entrance. My favourite subject was biology and hence wrote medical entrance but didn’t fair well. Now looking back, I realised that was the turning point in my life when my father took lot of interests in pooling huge money to get me an admission in medical college just to keep me happy & at par with my brother. I never denied it but was not confident whether I will be able to do justice to self & parents going out of my home, comforts & still didn’t voice out.
I got admitted in a college which was far away but had lot of relatives at that place but nothing could console me other than my parents, my home & brother. Studies started. Being in hostel for the first time, new friends, new environment& tough course curriculum I was thoroughly confused. I knew I was changing not able to cope up troubling my parents on a daily basis to give up while getting depressed equally understanding the fact that my parents had put in their entire investments on my studies. One year I struggled with myself, I had to take medicines for depression & everything aggravated with first time failures in initial set of internal exams.
Everything came to a standstill when I gave up totally & my father had to take that bold call of getting me back home sacrificing the entire money they had invested and my ambitious career. I shrunk to myself & even felt like killing myself to get saved from this trauma I was going through but could not when I realised how much my parents loved me. That is the first time when I saw them in tears because of my approach. I was not in a mood to pursue anything in life & that is when one of my close friends came into my life as an angel informing me about counselling done by Ancy Joe.
I still remember the first day I met her and her husband when I was not at all convinced with what they told me. But the trust they showered on me with regard to counselling & God’s presence moved me. Then it was days of blessings. Consistent counselling & teaching sessions with them enriched, enlightened & gave me confidence. They helped me in exploring & hand holding me with guiding light of God’s grace. Even though I lost one year, I applied for graduation & was very particular that will only avail a merit admission.
Now I am so happy & proud that I recovered, did that course for 3 years & came out with flying colours & that too God blessed me with a 3rd rank at M.G. University level. Now I realise God has plans for everyone & He sets direction through His aids other than our own relatives & parents. Now I am confident enough in making it in life & my revival is a testimony to prayer guided approach. Now I finished my Master’s degree and got first rank in the university level. All God’s grace and your contributions to my life remembered!!!To conclude, I have seen God rather blessed to see god through gestures, voice, actions & care which I got from them. Thanks for all your support and care!!